The Self Improvement Project - Day 40

Stats update

Weight: 68.5kg 
Loss: 2.0 kg in 1 month and 9 days - or 40 days...

So my diet isn't going great - I've been cheating on the dukan diet and binge eating as a result. I am soo frustrated of being a "yo-yo dieter". I really wish I could be more sensible and look after myself better. I've just seen some pictures of myself, taken at the weekend - disgusting! The worst part is, it always takes me by surprise... 

I always forget just how big I look, so I'm going to print out some of those pictures and put them around the flat - any visitors I have will think I'm a freak...and maybe I am! 

I know the challenges have been going really well. Little, small goals are really working for me. The logical thing for me to do would be to create mini, very realistic goals...which I guess my "11 pound (5kg)" weight loss pledge is...I just keep wanting it to happen sooner and get really furstrated with myself that it isn't happening! 

I just want it soo bad, I can't submit to this weight loss taking longer...this probably seems crazy to anyone else but myself...a freak and crazy! 

I'm hoping the focus on exercise will help me get to where I want to be...maybe I should incorporate that into my next challenge? I really need to give myself a reality check - I am very much on route to achieving my goal of loosing 11 pounds (5kg) by Christmas - I just need to focus!! Focus, eyes on the price and BE PATIENT!